Jean Grae::Michael’s Magic

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A heartbroken Hip-Hop Artist channels grief in2 a solo Bed-Stuy dance party

By Jean Grae

A year ago, I tried 2 convince a stranger that, yes, magic does indeed exist. I wasn’t talking about David Blaine, Criss Angel, or street magic—no. I meant the magic in creativity, in manifesting things at will, in . . . in . . . aggh! I was so frustrated that I couldn’t explain it 2 her, but then I realized that she would never just believe, wouldn’t even attempt 2 understand it. It made me so sad 4 her, 2 be missing out on the beauty in the world around her.

I say this because in the wake of Michael Jackson‘s passing, I’ve seen too many people comment on their indifference toward it. Now, it’s not the indifference that bothers me—it’s the failure 2 comprehend the grief others are feeling on a mass, worldwide level. “How can u miss something u never had?” read 1 dispatch on Twitter. I jokingly told my friend 2 respond back with: “Forget it—you won’t understand because u’re dead inside.” What could it be in a human that doesn’t recognize, or can so easily dismiss, clear & announced magic incarnate? Even if there is something in u, ur soul, your fiber, that is impervious 2 it—how can u deny its existence if it affects the rest of the world on a deeply profound level? 2 feel something as basic as thanks and compassion for receiving a touch of magic from the universe, grieving over the loss of its creator . . . 2 not understand the void people felt, 2 just not get it.

I cried, man. I cried HARD. I cry just remembering the feeling of reading the first online headlines, of waking my boyfriend 2 tell him the developing news. I cried harder because I saw his own tears well up. Then I Tweeted, re-Tweeted . . . felt the energy & outpouring of love from others. It helped 2 be a part of a real-time community at that moment—it truly did.

When his death was officially announced, we stared at the TV in awe. We each got up & wandered out of the room 2 cry alone, then wandered back in 2 have a shoulder. Back & forth with that for a bit. My mom called, and, at first, I couldn’t even speak. My mom is 72, so there’s a definite generational gap, but she expressed how much she had grown up WITH us, grown up with us loving him. She sounded heartbroken.

I didn’t want 2 watch what started almost immediately afterward on the news: the talk of controversy in his life, in his finances, regarding his estate. Hell, no. It was disparaging and indecent. Turn the damn TV off. All that made sense was 2 avoid ruining the magic. 2 turn the music on. 2 dance & celebrate the gift we’d been given. 2 feel every note, every signature ad lib, every musical breakdown and crescendo, every line. 2 recall the memory that corresponded with each moment, and, oh, there were so many. Weakly smiling and shouting things like, “But remember when he broke out that new walk? Maaaan!”

I made a playlist, opened the windows, lit a candle, and just zoned out. I wished I was at the Apollo and contemplated throwing an impromptu house party. No. I just wanted 2 dance. I spun like a whirling dervish 2 a blasting sound system. I wondered why I was the only one in Bed-Stuy blaring Mike out the windows. I cried while I was dancing—I remembered every moment I had with every song. I loved the suggestions of gatherings that started 2 spring up. The memories hanging in the air, thick. I could dance in it, breathe it in, unable 2 pinpoint the physicality, but recognizing its existence.

I believe in magic, so much that I rely on it to live. I know that I’m capable of creating it, but I bow in the presence of those who are way more powerful than I. I’m lucky and blessed to have been one of the millions who received Michael’s magical, awesome, immortal presents/presence.

I also believe in the fragility of the human soul. I think there’s only so much battering and shielding (that contrast is so interesting) it can take. I think there is always a place in us that escapes and flies freely, even if you, yourself, are prevented from doing so.

I’m not going to speculate on any of the controversy, the darkness—we all have, all of us. I can’t judge anyone, and I won’t. I can only say that magic is the most important, the most real, the most unifying tool I’ve ever known. I’ve watched people all over the world react, seen them dance in celebration, emulate in flattery and remembrance, struggle to express their gratitude and love for the . . . ahhh, dammit . . . everything he was to us: our brother, our first boyfriend, our little prince transformed into a king. The force unstoppable and perfect, with every imperfection. The immortal beloved forever.

I remember clinging to the Thriller cover (after making out with it, of course) and feeling comfort, feeling love, like the scent you’d get from a T-shirt your lover had left behind. No, I never met Michael Jackson. No, never even got close. But if he wasn’t the most brilliant sliver of magic alive, I don’t know what is or ever will be.

Michael Jackson: The Man in Our Mirror

Direct Impact of MJ:Hip-Hop/R&B

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This visual representation of various [Hip-Hop] artists that sampled Michael Jackson is clearly incomplete, though the general point seems 2 be quite relevant. Most of the influence shown here clearly focuses on Hip-Hop; which is why the Immediate ? of ‘whu did this chart/graph/pix/web & what was there point? . .as 1 of Hip-Hop’s most beautiful facts is that is has no boundaries; acapella/instrumentation/samples/Poetry. .etc. Therefor making way for an ACTUAL chart of ‘some’ of the INFINITE influence he had [<hurts 2 say that] on the Music of every existing culture we know as humans. Pretty sure this does not include material MJ put out under The Jackson 5 (i.e. Jay’s “H to the Izzo” by Ye).

“The Dating Game” in 1970,before her rise to fame